I told her not to, she’s a nob. I’m sorry; I’ve wanted to talk to you for ages and I couldn’t /: I may be up there an Wednesday but it depends if I’m walking -_- aha.
Uh I miss life, I miss you, my family, I’m surrounded by darkness and I can’t get out
I don’t work for a company thing, it’s not a proper proper job, but I’m always working, cause if I miss a day, I will loose a lot of money, doubt you’ll want to see me anyway. And I know what you mean; it’s the first time I’ve been here since when I was with you, everything is you and me. I don’t know if I should call you, but jess has got your number just in case, is it bad that we are talking like this? Things keep going through my head, over thinking will make me ill soon, why do you never leave my head
Up hanley on my only day of freedom and everything reminds me of you, even being with jess, seeing all them places again, remembering everything, I got on the bus and maccies man was standing opposite me. I’m glad the world is not letting me forget you, I don’t want to. A guy told me you called, I wasn’t even around I was on a job, I wish I could of picked up that phone, I don’t have a proper phone anymore or a number, I don’t even have your number; I was going ring you today but jess doesn’t have your number either. Hope you okay
I have this job, I work for someone; but if I have any contact with the outside. It will get me into trouble. This life is not for me and when I do that one last thing that’s waiting on my list it will all go away. I will go away, I’m not fine, but I want you to stay happy. Find someone better, it won’t be hard. P.s I like your new anchor shirt it suits you a lot. Stay safe. If I can I will try and get into contact with you. I’ll try my best. I hope you are doing ok.
You tried to contact me and I don’t have a phone anymore. I wish I could speak to you.
I’m glad you’re happy, I knew id just be the one to pull you down.
just one more thing to do now.
If suicide was always this difficult how did I just get there last time. How did I get to that point how come this time I have to say goodbye. How come this time there are letters involved and heartache and heartbreak, the only person I want to see right now if you and I doubt you’ll ever speak to me again. If I’d of stayed the loss of me would of hurt more. I’m saving you. Sorry.